This Type Of Love by Shihan
I want a love like me thinking of you
Thinking of me thinking of you type of love.
Or me telling my friends more than I've ever admitted to myself
About how I feel about you type of love.
Or hating how jealous you are
But loving how much you want me all to yourself type of love.
Or see how your first name just sounds so good next to my last name.
And shit I wanted to see how far I could get without calling you
And I barely made it out of my garage.
See, I want a love that makes me wait until she falls asleep,
And wonder if she's dreaming about us being in love type of love.
Or who loves the other more,
Or what she's doing this exact moment,
Or slow dancing in the middle of our apartment to the music of our hearts,
Closing my eyes and imagining how a love so good
Could hurt so much when she's not there.
And shit I love not knowing where this love is headed type of love.
And check this, I want to place those little post-it notes
All around the house so she never forgets how much I love her type of love.
And not have enough ink in my pen to write all there is to love about her type of love.
And hope I make her feel as good as she makes me feel.
And I want to deal with my friends making fun of me,
The way I made fun of them when they went through the same kind of type of love.
Only difference is, this is one of those real type loves.
And just like in high school
I want to spend hours on the phone not saying shit,
And then fall asleep and then wake up with her right next to me.
And smell her all up in my covers type of love.
I want to try counting the ways I love her
And lose count in the middle just so I have to start all over again.
And I want to celebrate one of those one month anniversaries
Even though they aren't really anniversaries,
But doing it just because it makes her happy type of love.
And check this, I want to fall in love with the melody the phone plays
When none of us dialed into it type of love.
And talk to you until I lose my breathe.
She leaves me breathless
But with the expanding of my lungs I inhale all of her back into me.
I want a love that makes me need to change my cellphone calling plan
To something that allows me to talk to her longer,
Because in all honesty I want to avoid one of them high cellphone bill type of loves.
And I want a love that makes me regret how small my hands are.
I mean the lines on my palms don't give me enough time
To love you as long as I'd like to type of love.
And I want a love that makes me st-st-st-st-stutter
Just thinking about how strong this love is type love.
And i want a love that make me want to cut off all my hair,
Well maybe not all of the hair,
Maybe like I cut the split ends and trim my moustache.
But it would still be a symbol of how strong my love is for her.
And check this, I kind of feel comfortable now.
So I even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light,
Just dying to get hit by a car
Just so I could lose my memory.
Get transported to some third world country just to get treated.
Then somehow meet up again with you so I can fall in love with you
In a different language and see if it still feels the same type of love.
I want a love that is unexplainable as she is.
But I'm married, so she's gonna be the one I share this love with.
Dedicated to my boyfriend :)
I love you till infinity ♥