Sunday, 28 April 2013

1 Year Into a Lifetime ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

"The expected is what keeps us steady. It's the unexpected that changes our lives forever..." 
O que nós temos, foi muito mais que unexpected e vai durar pra sempre!

The day I met you, I could've never imagined how special you would turn out to be in my life... And now we're here, celebrating our one year anniversary. We're here happier than ever together. Making plans for the future, because our plan in life is to never part each other's side. (At least that's my plan :p lol)

I love you my angel and I want you to know that EVERY second of your life and with every breath you take, just know that I LOVE YOU.
I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order from a restaurant menu. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. It's not because I'm lonely and it's not because it's New Year's Eve...
I am writing this to you because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

I'm a bit speechless to even begin writing about our journey, mas não podia deixar este dia passar em branco. So I'll leave you with a collage and some quotes that mean a lot to me and describe EXACTLY how I feel towards you and the words I sometimes feel I cannot convey to you...

Our first picture together :P Custou tirar! hahahaha

"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more. That plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever."

Nós dois SEMPRE doidos! lol

O dia da surpresa! :) Tavas tão feliz meu amor...
We ride together. We die together.
One of our favorite pictures! :) Só no glamour hehehe

I want to marry you. I want to have kids with you. I want to build us a house. I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want to die when I'm 110 years old, in your arms. I don't want 48 uninterrupted hours. I want a lifetime...


Feliz 1 ano de namoro meu Biluzinhu!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ 

Wednesday, 6 March 2013

This Type of Love :)

This Type Of Love by Shihan

I want a love like me thinking of you
Thinking of me thinking of you type of love.
Or me telling my friends more than I've ever admitted to myself
About how I feel about you type of love.
Or hating how jealous you are
But loving how much you want me all to yourself type of love.
Or see how your first name just sounds so good next to my last name.
And shit I wanted to see how far I could get without calling you
And I barely made it out of my garage.

See, I want a love that makes me wait until she falls asleep,
And wonder if she's dreaming about us being in love type of love.
Or who loves the other more,
Or what she's doing this exact moment,
Or slow dancing in the middle of our apartment to the music of our hearts,
Closing my eyes and imagining how a love so good
Could hurt so much when she's not there.
And shit I love not knowing where this love is headed type of love.
And check this, I want to place those little post-it notes
All around the house so she never forgets how much I love her type of love.
And not have enough ink in my pen to write all there is to love about her type of love.
And hope I make her feel as good as she makes me feel.

And I want to deal with my friends making fun of me,
The way I made fun of them when they went through the same kind of type of love.
Only difference is, this is one of those real type loves.
And just like in high school
I want to spend hours on the phone not saying shit,
And then fall asleep and then wake up with her right next to me.
And smell her all up in my covers type of love.
I want to try counting the ways I love her
And lose count in the middle just so I have to start  all over again.
And I want to celebrate one of those one month anniversaries
Even though they aren't really anniversaries,
But doing it just because it makes her happy type of love.
And check this, I want to fall in love with the melody the phone plays
When none of us dialed into it type of love.
And talk to you until I lose my breathe.
She leaves me breathless
But with the expanding of my lungs I inhale all of her back into me. 

I want a love that makes me need to change my cellphone calling plan
To something that allows me to talk to her longer,
Because in all honesty I want to avoid one of them high cellphone bill type of loves.
And I want a love that makes me regret how small my hands are.
I mean the lines on my palms don't give me enough time
To love you as long as I'd like to type of love.
And I want a love that makes me st-st-st-st-stutter
Just thinking about how strong this love is type love.
And i want a love that make me want to cut off all my hair,
Well maybe not all of the hair,
Maybe like I cut the split ends and trim my moustache.
But it would still be a symbol of how strong my love is for her.

And check this, I kind of feel comfortable now.
So I even be fantasizing about walking out on a green light,
Just dying to get hit by a car
Just so I could lose my memory.
Get transported to some third world country just to get treated.
Then somehow meet up again with you so I can fall in love with you
In a different language and see if it still feels the same type of love.
I want a love that is unexplainable as she is.
But I'm married, so she's gonna be the one I share this love with.

Dedicated to my boyfriend :)

I love you till infinity 

Saturday, 23 February 2013


This is a sensitive topic for me to touch on but I just felt like writing today... And what better place to write on, than my blog which I haven't haven't updated in ages!

I usually read posts about fathers... "Appreciate your father, for one day they won't be in this world", "My father is my hero", "I am my dad's little princess" etc. Unfortunately I feel like I don't relate to this post. It hurts me deep inside to even admit that to myself, never mind admitting this to the world...

Don't take me wrong, I love my father. Thanks to him I am in this world and thanks to him I am where I am and I have what I have in life. But quite frankly that's all I can think off in terms of my dad...
I wish I could have more. I wish I could have his affection. I wish I could have his time. I wish he could care about me and show me love just like I see my friends receiving love from their fathers.
I wish I could still have the right to say that besides my age and beside how much time has passed, I am still "Daddy's little girl"... Maybe he has his own way of showing this, as we all know by now, not everybody is the same. But can a father really be this different?

When did this happen? When did things start falling apart?

I remember when I was your little girl and we would always spend weekends together. We would always go on trips together. You always buy me toys and gifts. You always made valentine's day special to me by buying me roses. We would go to work together. We would have discussions about soccer. We would watch the news together. We would play tennis. We would listen to music together. Celine Dion and Don Williams were your favourites. We would go out for lunch/dinner together, without it feeling like it was a business meeting. I was your daughter. You had hope and faith in me. You believed that I could be anything i wanted to be and you always pushed me to follow my dreams. But then somewhere along the way everything just changed... Maybe no one is to blame, but everything changed.

Now I can't even have a simple conversation with you. Just the thought of being with you makes me cringe. Now I don't get to feel as special anymore. I don't have your approval for anything I do in life. I don't get play tennis with you, nor travel with you, nor listen to music with you, not even a single chance to spend genuine quality and happy time with you. Now things are not the same. We are strangers to each other.
Maybe I am to blame. Maybe time just went by too fast and we didn't have a chance to catch up with each others life....

What happened to us? You used to be my father.... I used to be your daughter...

You provided me with shelter, clothes, a good education, some luxuries... But I need more than that. I need love. Love from my father. One of the two people that made it possible for my existence in this world. I need YOU, my father beside me. Listening to me during my tough times in life. Picking me up whenever I feel down. Patiently telling me where I went wrong and leading me the right way in life. I need YOU, my one and only father...

Sunday, 20 January 2013

I Found Myself... :)

"21, and I've realized everything you want's not meant to be.
21, then you qualify to stand up to responsibilities.
So I tried to prioritize by deciding what I know is best for me.

And then there's always love that tries to trip you up.
You try to catch yourself before you hit the ground.
But nothings promised.
Friends are there to cheer you up, to give you strength and build you up when you are down.
So I set sail emotion

I say
So long, farewell, my life's moving forward.
My ship has sailed and I'm so glad it's over.
My heart is well after all that I've been through.
I found myself.

I'm looking out for me.
Taking care of my needs.
Life isn't guaranteed.
It's time to start living.
It won't always be the same.
I can't be afraid of change.
You wanna have your way, demand till your satisfied.
You lower your self esteem.
You gotta live your dream.
It's all bout confidence.
To let them know that you can stand up.
You never try.
Learn to express you mind.
Sometimes you gotta fight.
It's your life so don't you give up!"