Longing, Belief, Hope, Faith and Love...

Sometimes I cry... I cry to let everything out.

Everything that is bottled up inside me.

Everything I am not allowed to say, feel or show...

Sometimes I miss you.

Sometimes I want to talk to you.

Hold you. Touch you. Feel you. Kiss you.

Sometimes it is you I dream of.

Think of. Long to be with... But I can't.

You now belong to someone else. You are someone else’s dream.

You are in someone else’s thoughts.

You hold someone else. You feel someone else...

You kiss someone else.

And I am crushed, deeply crushed.

But all I can I do is pray. Pray that you are happy.

Pray that she treats you right.

Pray that she treats you better than I could have ever treated you.

Pray that she loves you...

But I also secretly pray...

Pray that one day our destinies will cross and we will never part again.  

I pray because I believe.

I pray because I have faith.

I pray because I have hope.

Hope that never dies, just like my love for you never will...

By: Andréa André (19 May 2011)

What Keeps Me Going In Life

Even when there are clouds in the sky, the sun will still shine :)

Lately I have been feeling very down. Not wanting to go too deep into this, I would rather just associate it with the fact that I am stressed because I am writing my final exams and anything bad that happens to me has the ability to push my "feeling down" button. It is pretty much as if I am hanging on the edge of a mountain.

So much has happened to me in the past month: my friend's death; friendship deceit; exams, that I even wonder how I have been able to handle it all, the way I have been. Actually I do know how, with God's help. But you know how humans usually live under the pretense that they can't go through difficult times "by themselves" and they always need a human anchor in life. I have actually been keeping up pretty well, and all of this alone (in the world). But deep down inside I know that the there was more than extra help, from a higher power which I call the help from God.
I see this because everyday I can wake up with a smile on my face and I can say that better days will come. I might cry, I might sometimes feel empty, but I know that there are a lot of reasons for me not to give up on anything because all this hope and faith I have in God keeps me going and helps me overcome all the bad things I go through in life. I mean, no one said this would be easy and life itself is a challenge. So all I can do is pray and hang in there because I know that at the end of the day, everything will be alright as long as I put my faith and trust in God.

No words can express how much I love you 

I look all around me, nature, my awesome family and my fantastic friends... Why should I even believe that life isn't worth living when everyday I have a reason to smile. They might not always be around me, but I believe that I am in their thoughts and hearts just the same way that they are in mine. So i'm going to keep smiling and being joyous, because I have all the reasons to do that. I will get back up, I will study for my exams, because one hell of a holiday is approaching me and my favourite month of the year (my birthday month) is just around the corner. So NOTHING will bring me down! :)

A minha Mary J q eu tanto amo <3

The world without you all would be a different place....

God Gives and Takes Away

Today I received one of the most depressing news in my life. A friend, Ricardo Formigal, passed away :'( :(
Words can't describe how much I will miss you Ricardo. You were more than just a friend to me and you were extremely special to me. What an exceptional person you were. Always there for everyone whenever everyone needed you. You were always positive and somehow made life seem so much more joyful than it is. The little things gave you the most joy in life.
Words can't begin to describe how much i'll miss you. I already did miss all the afternoons we used to spend together, looking at the city from your balcony. All the talks we had and how you made me smile :) You always knew how to make me feel special. You always knew how to sweep me off my feet... When I was around you, everything just seemed to be somehow... Perfect... And for some foolish reason I think I took that for granted. I was a foolish teenager and human being, in hopes of receiving more than what I had. Not taking in what you taught me, that sometimes in life we should treasure what we have and enjoy the moment, because the simple things are usually the best. And I can say that with a full heart, You were one of the best things that has ever happened to me.


I have your family in my prayers and I pray that you are in a better place now, smiling at the world like you always did to the people around you. Even though I'm sad now for your loss, I will always be happy about having you in my life and i'll be forever thankful for the special moments I had with you. And most importantly Ricardo, I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU...

May your soul rest in peace... :'( You left a mark in everyone's lives that you were a part of.

Adoro-te para sempre meu principe encantado <3

Para Ricardo Formigal... R.I.P.

If I never knew you. If I never felt this love.
I would have no inkling of how precious life can be.
And if I never held you, I would never have a clue how at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me.

In this world so full of fear, full of rage and lies.
I can see the truth so clear in your eyes,
So dry your eyes.

And I'm so grateful to you.
I'd have lived my whole life through lost forever,
If I never knew you.

If I never knew you, I'd be safe but half as real.
Never knowing I could feel a love so strong and true.
I'm so grateful to you I'd have lived my whole life through lost forever,
If I never knew you.
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I thought our love would be so beautiful.
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright.
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong,
All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night
But still my heart is saying we were right...

If I never knew you. If I never knew this love
I would have no inkling of how precious life can be...

There's no moment I regret since the moment that we met.
If our time has gone too fast I've lived at last...

I thought our love would be so beautiful.
Somehow we'd make the whole world bright.
I thought our love would be so beautiful.
We'd turn the darkness into light.
And still my heart is saying we were right...

And If I never knew you.
If I never knew you, I'd have lived my whole life through...
Empty as the sky, never knowing why.
Lost forever, if I never knew you...